State of the Me

[thedeadlyhook]

Damn, it has been a really long time since I last posted. Ye gods. Happy Belated New Year, everyone! I guess this would be the late equivalent of my year-end taking-stock post.

It's ironic, I think: I've become more and more of a hermit, social-networking-wise, now that it's practically ubitquitous out there, what with the Facebook and Twitter, and etc., etc. The more pressure there is to be "on" all the time, the less I find myself having to say. Yes, of course I realize that this is only an imagined pressure on my part, but still - I honestly find myself thinking You know, I just want to stop and smell the flowers, or read a book, or whatever, without blogging about it, okay? As happy fun-time things go, it's starting to feel a bit too much like a job.

Which I guess is part of why I haven't been around too much. The other part is the usual fandom drift; my current television and movie viewing is poles apart from the tastes of my friendslist (I watch little on TV these days other than cooking shows, Discovery Channel, and Cartoon Network - ask me about "Worst Cooks in America"! - and I think the last film I saw in a theater was Paranormal Activity). I'm also pretty much off the Buffy fandom radar, as I'm not following the comics. (Although I did hear about the "Twilight" reveal, and have little to add that hasn't already been said by rahirah or shipperx.) I skim LJ, but rarely comment... I really don't know what to say anymore. Sigh.

On a slightly more uplifting note, I've actually started to write again.

Confession time: for quite awhile now, I've been trying to decide if I was really done with Buffy fanfic. On the surface of it, it certainly looked like it - I hadn't written anything new in months, not since the hard-drive crash that ate my last plot bunny (a shame, since I was really liking my spur-of-the-moment premise, and it went into the great unknown literally the day after it was starting to take shape, and I'd turned out a nice chunk of prose I was really pleased with), and I have WIPs on my drive that have languished for actual YEARS. But. I don't think I am quite done, not yet.

Long story short, you can thank a friend of mine, one of my few RL friends who knows about my fandom journal, for nudging me about it, because the other day, I found myself picking up the threads of my old WIP, "Action Figures and Fashion Dolls." And it was FUN. Fun to read my old notes about where that story was going to go, fun to just enjoy playing with words again. Fun to create again.

I think I'd honestly forgotten what it was like. I even feel less tired now than I have been, just from playing around with that story.

So yeah, there may be yet more Buffyfic from me in the not-too-far-off-future, cross fingers. Not that I expect anyone's been waiting for it, or should feel in any way compelled to comment even if so, as bad as I've been about commenting myself lately, but... yeah. There may be some left in me yet.

Comments

[asta77.livejournal.com]

I haven't written fic in ages, but have a long gestating BSG fic (as well as a new 'White Collar' plot bunny) and I hope people will still care once I get around to writing/posting it so I totally encourage you picking up where you left off. :)

[thedeadlyhook.livejournal.com]

Thanks! I figure the audience issue is probably isn't as important - people will either be interested or not - as the exercise of getting out those ol' trapped feelings/thoughts and finally putting them into words. So yay for continuing stories! I totally encourage you to keep going as well.

So "White Collar" is worth checking out, then? I admit to being intrigued by that one.

[asta77.livejournal.com]

White Collar is my current obsession so, yeah, I'd highly recommend giving it a try. Putting aside Matt Bomer's prettiness (he can also act), the cast, especially he and Tim DeKay, have great chemistry and the dialogue is sharp. The plots can be weak, but they at least don't insult my intelligence. And in a fandom that his heavily into Neal (Matt)/Peter (Tim), it has also embraced (in more ways than one ;), Peter's wife Elizabeth (Tiffani Thiessen). Her part on the show isn't huge and she's mostly there to support Peter (and to a lesser extent, Neal) but she's written as smart, strong and funny.

I could go on, but those are the non-spoilery highlights. :)

[thedeadlyhook.livejournal.com]

Sounds good! I will definitely check it out, then.