Gosh, I love this. This is the kind of question that really inspires me, makes me get into my own thematic stuff and make sure it's saying what I want it to say. Obviously, I can't claim to have planned this out very rigidly - the chapter-revision follies as evidence to how loosely I plan - but now that you've pointed to this, I can see what I have got built here more clearly.
No, Spike doesn't really know what he wants. Like "Dirty Back Road," this story is nominally in Buffy's POV, and he's kind of a black box to her right now - funnily enough, if she'd turned that question around on him, asked him what he wanted, she could have won the argument! : )
I guess this is kind of related to my personal vision of the character of Spike as someone who's flying blind most of the time, just figuring things out as he goes - he makes up artificial goals for himself (kill Slayer, etc.), but beyond that, he's guessing.
Thanks for inspiring me! I swear, I plotted out half the next chapter thinking about how to answer this question!
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Date: 2004-12-19 01:15 am (UTC)No, Spike doesn't really know what he wants. Like "Dirty Back Road," this story is nominally in Buffy's POV, and he's kind of a black box to her right now - funnily enough, if she'd turned that question around on him, asked him what he wanted, she could have won the argument! : )
I guess this is kind of related to my personal vision of the character of Spike as someone who's flying blind most of the time, just figuring things out as he goes - he makes up artificial goals for himself (kill Slayer, etc.), but beyond that, he's guessing.
Thanks for inspiring me! I swear, I plotted out half the next chapter thinking about how to answer this question!