Reading some of the current WIPs by people on my flist leaves me curled up in a little ball of self-loathing.
Hey! You're one of the people I was referring to, doing those post-series fics that make me feel all insecure. That scene you wrote, where Spike blurts out the "no you don't" line again... that was so powerful and believable it gave me chills. I was really, really rethinking "Does It Have to Mean Something?" after that, wobbling my chin that I'm never gonna be able to cough up anything that good. So, like, not to get too much into all the mutual admiration around here (although, come to think of it, why-the-hell-not?), I don't think you have any reason to doubt your stuff.
Here's a question - do you think the reason for all this feeling, the I-could-never-write-something-that-good is a case of how many possiblities are left open, like anything could happen and I chose this but why didn't I choose that? - or just a thing where you as the writer see the flaws in your own stuff more clearly? For example, I'm always very aware of how limited my ability is to provide stage directions for the characters when talking, and that they always seem to be doing the same three things in reactions, usually having to do with the position of their heads or their eyes. So I wince as as I write it, but but I literally can't think of anything else. So there's always a part of me that's thinking this really isn't good. Or maybe a combination of both factors?
But anyway, thank you for feeling I deserve to be described in the same breath as people like DutchBuffy and Fer. And you know, right back atcha. : )
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Date: 2005-01-23 10:12 pm (UTC)Hey! You're one of the people I was referring to, doing those post-series fics that make me feel all insecure. That scene you wrote, where Spike blurts out the "no you don't" line again... that was so powerful and believable it gave me chills. I was really, really rethinking "Does It Have to Mean Something?" after that, wobbling my chin that I'm never gonna be able to cough up anything that good. So, like, not to get too much into all the mutual admiration around here (although, come to think of it, why-the-hell-not?), I don't think you have any reason to doubt your stuff.
Here's a question - do you think the reason for all this feeling, the I-could-never-write-something-that-good is a case of how many possiblities are left open, like anything could happen and I chose this but why didn't I choose that? - or just a thing where you as the writer see the flaws in your own stuff more clearly? For example, I'm always very aware of how limited my ability is to provide stage directions for the characters when talking, and that they always seem to be doing the same three things in reactions, usually having to do with the position of their heads or their eyes. So I wince as as I write it, but but I literally can't think of anything else. So there's always a part of me that's thinking this really isn't good. Or maybe a combination of both factors?
But anyway, thank you for feeling I deserve to be described in the same breath as people like DutchBuffy and Fer. And you know, right back atcha. : )