How incredible that the flashbacks of FFL and LMPTM could do so much after the fact to explain his character and behaviour throughout all the seasons.
I personally tend to assign more meaning to FFL than LMPTM, because I do have some issues with the continuing "mother" joke, but since it's canon, I feel the need to try to deal with it. It's my thing.
I can hear him fighting himself on that topic, desperately wanting some connection to the past and yet afraid of what he might find there, or how it's been lost. It's the same reason I haven't gone past our family house since it was sold - I don't want to know what's been done to it.
I was quite hesitant about that including that image, actually, even though on some levels it was the whole inspiration for the story, Spike's relationship with his past. He strikes me as someone who doesn't think about his history very hard most of the time, or tries not to, but as above, with the repeating "mother" joke, and in episodes like "Sleeper" and "Damage," you can see him trying to come to terms with it, force himself to look at what he doesn't want to.
Prolific... I dunno about that. I'm only getting this much done today because Toys is out of town. But thank you. : )
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Date: 2005-01-24 05:49 pm (UTC)I personally tend to assign more meaning to FFL than LMPTM, because I do have some issues with the continuing "mother" joke, but since it's canon, I feel the need to try to deal with it. It's my thing.
I can hear him fighting himself on that topic, desperately wanting some connection to the past and yet afraid of what he might find there, or how it's been lost. It's the same reason I haven't gone past our family house since it was sold - I don't want to know what's been done to it.
I was quite hesitant about that including that image, actually, even though on some levels it was the whole inspiration for the story, Spike's relationship with his past. He strikes me as someone who doesn't think about his history very hard most of the time, or tries not to, but as above, with the repeating "mother" joke, and in episodes like "Sleeper" and "Damage," you can see him trying to come to terms with it, force himself to look at what he doesn't want to.
Prolific... I dunno about that. I'm only getting this much done today because Toys is out of town. But thank you. : )