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Plotty, plot, plot in the form of a conversation over pints. End won't be much longer now. (Edited on 2/20 to smooth out some snags.) Previous parts here.


The Center, Part 13


"The council," Buffy repeats. "My council. What are you saying?"

Her face is stubborn. Closed off, anger sparking. He's seen that face before, oh sure, plenty of times. When she's gearing up for a good, hard fight, just about ready to get stuck in. There are variations to it, of course--the light in her eyes she gets when she's excited, when she knows she's going to win, the look of flat misery he remembers seeing more than once after she'd been dead and come back. The anger, pure, like gasoline keeping her upright and running. The Slayer deathwish in full bloom.

Not this time, though. There's hope in her face, just enough of it to look like hurt, a silent plea of tell me it isn't true. He can't. Wishes he could, but he can't.

He keeps his voice low. Tries to make it gentle, soften the blow. "It's a government building, love."

"So? That doesn't prove anything."

"It proves someone with high-level pull got those pictures in. Not like just anything gets to hang in those halls." She couldn't be so far into denial not to realize that. "You think it was demons, working for the National Trust?"

"Why not? You said that there were demons everywhere in the government, in big positions of power--wasn't that the whole point about you and Angel a-and... Wolfy Heart?"

"Yeah, sure. If it was just me and Angel, I'd say maybe. But it doesn't hold up as a reason for Dru. No reason for a demon to go after her. There's only one group that would bother keeping tabs on her, and that's yours."

Her jaw could have been carved in granite, locked tight. "Then it was a mistake. Somebody really thought that she was a princess or something."

"Darla too?"

"Sure, why not? They were old paintings. Maybe they really look like those sisters. And it said they don't have Darla's picture. So maybe--"

"Bollocks, Buffy." He takes a swig of his drink, then another. Sets down the glass with a bang. "The hell they don't have it. Darla's portrait just isn't hanging because she's dead. Dead gets you off the Most Wanted list. Private collector, my arse." He took another drink. He needed it. "Then if she ever comes back to life again, they can hang it back up and say they bought the twin painting, hallelujah."

"That's a pretty big theory just from looking at a couple of paintings."

"My photograph was there too. So was Angel's. That's a few too many mistakes for coincidence." He blew out a snort of annoyance. "Oh, c'mon, didn't you notice the note on my picture? 'Only known surviving photograph of Lord Explorer Whathisname after his return from the jungles of Africa'? 'Thought lost in the Arctic'? It's a code, Buffy."

She stared at him. "Since when are you so paranoid?"

He slammed back the last of the ale in his glass. Tapped his fingers restlessly on the table. Since when? Since waking up from what he thought would be his second last battle and realizing he'd survived yet again. Since hearing from Angel that the show certainly wasn't over yet, not by a long shot. Since he found out, thanks again to Angel, that he was the Golden Boy of prophecy now. Since thanks to said prophecy and Angel's stupid spell he'd gained a large target painted on his back and every damn demon in the dimension and then some wanting a piece of him. Probably since then.

"Listen to me, Buffy," he says patiently, keeping his voice even with some effort. "What we saw today, that wasn't the work of demons. I know demons. Lived with them, worked with them. That--" He pointed. "--was something a human would think up, so either it's Slayers, or whatever you've got that passes for Watchers right now. And what it says to me is that I've got a price on my head. And so does Angel, and so does Dru."

There was more to it than that, of course. None of it anything he could really explain, not to her. Something a human would think up. It was only the venue that made him think that--a public space, a place set aside for human traffic. The method, the code--that was familiar. He recognized it from the old days, when photographs weren't to be had by just anyone with a Brownie camera. No, back then you had to work the grapevine for information, and what certain people looked like was worth quite a lot in trade. Like faces of Slayers.

He'd paid good money to the right demons to find the Chinese Slayer he'd eventually killed. Her name, her image, where she lived. But in the end, it had turned out that all he'd really needed was the town. He would have been able to pick her out of any crowd, just on his senses alone. Her energy, sparking. Undeniable.

The greatest challenge a vampire could ever face. Or at least that's what he'd thought then.

"That doesn't make any sense," she insisted. "Spike, the council's not after you."

"How do you know? You don't exactly keep up with them anymore, do you?" She was shaking her head. He knew instinctively that she wasn't answering his question. "You call Angel and ask him--he'll tell you the same."

And okay, now that he was thinking about it, he had a new priority--he had to warn Angel. This could be a major problem. Every Slayer in the world with the two of them in their crosshairs. Like demons making power plays between them wasn't bad enough.

And that decided him, suddenly. He really, really needed to get back to his own world and stop dithering around in Buffy's. Just stop dicking around in general. What good did it do? It didn't make her happy, or him. What had he been thinking?

Stupid. One thing to know your crimes, learn from them. Another to just hang about and wallow. Isn't that what he'd just been doing? He'd ragged out Angel for doing that, getting caught up in the past. Even his stupid naive human self knew better.

What mattered was the future. What mattered was the now.

"I called Angel already," she says. "Yesterday. Back at the hotel."

It's all he can do not to bolt to his feet. Oh, shit. Shit! "You what?"

"I called him to let him know everything was okay. And he said you should rest up, take a little break, that everything was fine." She glared at him then, as if it was his fault somehow that everything had suddenly gone straight to hell.

His mind skipped over the information about Angel giving him permission to hang out with Buffy. No time now for that. "You didn't call him from the hotel phone, did you?" Traceable call. Worse than bad.

"My cell phone." She lifts her chin, challenging. "You're seriously suggesting that those galleries are full of secret messages about vampires?"

"Why not?" And the real seriousness of the situation strikes him even as he says it. Slayers organized, an army of Slayers, all turned against him, all with easy access to his picture, a name, a kill order. And for the first time it occurs to him that this is how she must have felt back then, when she was the world's only Slayer. All alone. The world filled with nothing but victims to protect or assassins out to kill you. His mouth is suddenly dry.

"Gotta hand it to old Rupert," he says huskily. "Hang our faces in a public place anyone can walk into--pretty smart. No worries their archive'll get blown up by some psychopath. British government guards it for 'em. They could do it in museums all over the world..." He swallows.

He'd only understood that before from the other side. A hunter's understanding of its prey.

"Online would make more sense in paranoia-land, Spike. Why wouldn't they just email your picture around?"

And oh great, now here she was bringing him back down to Earth in the twenty-first century, where technology made things even worse. "How do you know they didn't?"

She's still shaking her head, not sold. "No. I don't believe it. Giles wouldn't--" Then she stops, and their eyes meet. She looks down at the table quickly, and her hands are suddenly busy, tightly grasping her glass.

And he feels it then, a surge of sympathy for her. A flash of self-hatred for bringing that kind of pain back into her life. Making her choose.

And then, just as quickly, he lets it go. Fuck it. He hasn't got time for hating himself, not anymore, not against something like this. Let them come and try to take him down. Not like he hasn't spent years tempting fate, throwing himself at battles he had no business winning. Let old Rupes come and try.

He has work to do now, real responsibilities, and there's only one person he'll accept as his judge. And none of these new Slayers are her.

Buffy picks up her glass then and begins to drink. Chugs back almost half the pint, and he watches her in some surprise, brows drawn in.

"If it's true," she gasps, pulling the glass away from her lips, setting it down. "Then something must have gone wrong. This isn't how it was supposed to be. I'll go to the council, okay? I'll find out."

"You're probably right." No point debating it anymore. "I'm sure they'll listen to you."

He believes nothing of the sort. Buffy's not in the field anymore, not a player. In his mind, he's already making his escape plan, readying for battle.

She meets this statement with a vicious glare. If her eyes could shoot arrows, he'd be riddled. "Don't do that to me," she says through closed teeth. "Don't talk to me like that. Like this isn't my fight too."

"It's not." He narrows his eyes at her. Not in the mood to play games. "Not your worry anymore, pet. It's mine."

"It is my worry. Because I care about you, you... stupid vampire, and if anyone's messing with you, then they're messing with me. No matter who they are." She blows out a little puff of air through her nose, like a petite arena bull, and gets to her feet. Stalks to the bar and gets them both some more to drink--another round for him, a big cup of coffee for her.

And he just watches her, recognizing the steam of determination rising from her small shoulders, her narrow little frame held so straight she could well be wearing a suit of armor.

Battlefield Buffy. His beautiful little Bodicea.

And for the first time in he doesn't know when, he feels a little glimmer of hope.

Because that's his girl.

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Date: 2005-02-16 03:13 pm (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] speakr2customrs.livejournal.com
Very interesting. And well written, etcetera, but with you that's pretty much a given.

Love the beautiful description of Battlefied Buffy at the end.

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Date: 2005-02-16 03:56 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] thedeadlyhook.livejournal.com
Thank you. I figure when it comes right down to it, it's her fighting spirit that he admires the most.

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Date: 2005-02-16 03:19 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] jenjojen.livejournal.com
Battlefield Buffy. His beautiful little Bodicea

I really loved this line. This is turning out really well, and I have enjoyed reading it.

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Date: 2005-02-16 03:58 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] thedeadlyhook.livejournal.com
Thanks. And the "Bodicea" line was me being sly, referencing back to "Dirty Back Road." That, and of course Spike's view of Buffy as his shining warrior queen. : )

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Date: 2005-02-16 03:25 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] bogwitch.livejournal.com
End won't be much longer now.

:(

But Buffy does need to give him a slap.

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Date: 2005-02-16 03:59 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] thedeadlyhook.livejournal.com
Ooh, slapping! That might be a differnt fic, though... ; )

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Date: 2005-02-16 03:32 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] herself_nyc
Awwww.

The museum thing still feels a little weird to me--because why not just do the wanted thing by email to all the slayers in the world?

Yeah, yeah, I'm all nitpicky. But it's bugging me a little, logic-wise.

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Date: 2005-02-16 03:54 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] thedeadlyhook.livejournal.com
why not just do the wanted thing by email to all the slayers in the world?

Oh, I'm sure they did. Which raises the question again of Buffy not being informed about it, but yeah, mostly I was thinking of a shift in attitude toward storage of the originals, from a private vault (presumably) in Watcher HQ to multiple locations all over the world and out in plain sight. I just like the of the New Improved Slayerness Experience as being a sort of open secret, where if you have the right access pass, you can find clues in places where other people just see mundane history. Sort of like how Buffy used to wonder if Rasputin was a vampire, and her teacher smacked her down for being too much into 'flights of fancy.'

But yeah, there would have been an email alert too. But I got a perverse kick out of the idea of each nation becoming trustees of precious archive images of its own notorious vampires, reproduced in catalogs...

Although then technically, Angel's picture should be in Ireland. Hmm...

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Date: 2005-02-16 04:00 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] herself_nyc
OK. I guess you've sold me. ;)

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Date: 2005-02-16 04:11 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] thedeadlyhook.livejournal.com
It's a plot thread I'll be picking back up in DIHTMS, so hopefully I can cover a lot of that ground there, so it's not quite so buggin.' There's this whole thing I wanted to get into there about the new Slayer regime that I just wanted to give a taste of here. But it's good that you're bringing it up - this might be a case of where my plot ambitious are overwhelming my better sense.

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Date: 2005-02-16 06:43 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] paratti.livejournal.com
Although then technically, Angel's picture should be in Ireland. Hmm... Not if the COW is classifying vampires as to their nationality at the time of turning. Since Great Britain ruled both Angel and Darla's place of death, they'd come under the UK remit. /fanwank

Loving the tension between them.

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Date: 2005-02-16 07:19 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] thedeadlyhook.livejournal.com
Since Great Britain ruled both Angel and Darla's place of death, they'd come under the UK remit

Which no doubt would drive Angel crazy if he has even a shred of Irish nationalism in him!

Glad you're liking the tension. I think I've come to the belated realization that I'm actually a very bad shipper - I'm interested in the individual characters and how they combine with each other, but have no interest in forcing things. I guess that's why the POV switching is helpful for me - I can very easily see either side of the equation, depending.

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Date: 2005-02-17 04:30 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] paratti.livejournal.com
Which no doubt would drive Angel crazy if he has even a shred of Irish nationalism in him!

Hee:) It'll be good for him. Character building.

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Date: 2005-02-16 03:37 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] st_salieri.livejournal.com
Hee. I'm really enjoying paranoid Spike.

Battlefield Buffy. His beautiful little Bodicea.

And for the first time in he doesn't know when, he feels a little glimmer of hope.

Because that's his girl.


Ah, lovely. I like the way this nicely bookends his impressions and memories of Buffy at the beginning of this chapter. They know each other so well, and at the same time they don't know each other at all.

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Date: 2005-02-16 04:07 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] thedeadlyhook.livejournal.com
Glad you like the full-on Spike paranoia - in some ways, I went kind of overboard on the plotsy stuff on this chapter, with the behind-the-scenes scheming and whatnot, but I'd begun to feel like those two were just wallowing around in their communication issues and needed a kick in their respective butts. ; )

I like the way this nicely bookends his impressions and memories of Buffy at the beginning of this chapter

Thanks! They really do connect best when it's life or death, don't they? I guess the trick is for them to be able to do it when they're not on the battlefield.

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Date: 2005-02-16 04:17 pm (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] makd.livejournal.com
I'm remembering the fate of Boadicea....really worried, now.

And, it's so S7 Giles to put Spike and Angel's pictures up as "wanted". bastard.

See, now I'm all involved and engaged in the story. (yeah, right: like I wasn't before this chapter.)

[makd sits by the computer waiting for the next chapter.]

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Date: 2005-02-16 04:31 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] thedeadlyhook.livejournal.com
I'm remembering the fate of Boadicea....really worried, now.

Yeah, I looked up a bit of her history, after I'd already used the name, just to double-check what I remembered, and woo, all sort of fun stuff!

From http://www.bbc.co.uk/cult/ghosts/characters/bodicea.shtml (http://www.bbc.co.uk/cult/ghosts/characters/bodicea.shtml): (exclamation points mine)

There are many legends surrounding the great lady's demise. According to some reports she took her own life by drinking from a poisoned chalice, but given her involvement with the supernatural defence of Albion and her use of magic to combat demonic forces [!!] who were working in concert with the invading Romans, it's likely she met a more brutal end.

There is also myths surrounding where she lies now, including being buried under Platform 10 at London's King's Cross Station. [!!!] Whether Bodicea fought her battle in the nude is another question, though we prefer to believe this is a fact!

And then...

And, it's so S7 Giles to put Spike and Angel's pictures up as "wanted". bastard.

Of course, that's just Spike's theory. Buffy actually isn't in touch with the new council very much, so one of my first jobs when I get back on DIHTMS will be to have her get back in the loop and find out how much of that is true.

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Date: 2005-02-16 05:27 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] spikefan.livejournal.com
Wow. I go away for awhile, and when I get back to LJ, there are four more parts to the story, Spike is himself again and the "deepest desire" was both the thing that I least expected and the one that made the most sense. The story I was enjoying took an amazing turn, yet it follows the thread started in the William chapters in a very satisfying way. I'm especially intrigued by the continuation of Spike and Buffy's respective quests (not sure what else to call it?) from the earlier chapters. Buffy's old assumptions about Spike are useless now, and it fascinates me to see her trying to figure out who he really is now that she has to let go of her ideas of Spike-the-lover, or Spike-the-rescue-project.

I'm really, really blown away.

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Date: 2005-02-16 07:31 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] thedeadlyhook.livejournal.com
Gosh, thank you. (glows happily)

Spike is himself again and the "deepest desire" was both the thing that I least expected and the one that made the most sense.

I'm relieved to hear this works when read as a single piece - it's hard for me to tell sometimes, working from chapter to chapter, if the logic flow is really working. I was quite worried about the "deepest desire," because at that point it had had been built up quite a lot.

Buffy's old assumptions about Spike are useless now, and it fascinates me to see her trying to figure out who he really is now that she has to let go of her ideas of Spike-the-lover, or Spike-the-rescue-project.

That's the part that I'm trying to figure out right now - like you put it, Buffy trying to reorg her perceptions of Spike around this new information she's just gotten. He's not fitting into any of her previous imagined boxes, and she's feeling around in the dark for a way to approach him this "new" version of him.

The question after a certain point becomes "why does she keep trying," because he's being so out of reach... but then I guess that's my challenge.

Thank you so much again for all the supportive thoughts! : )

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Date: 2005-02-16 07:56 pm (UTC)
From: (Anonymous)
I have my hand over my eyes and not reading, but lest you think I'm not interested in this fic, I've been waiting for it to be done, which, I realize, is not fair to you wanting feedback. So, I apologize but promise to read when it's complete. I've been feeling guilty but anxiously awaiting.

Gail

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Date: 2005-02-16 08:07 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] thedeadlyhook.livejournal.com
Thanks for letting me know. I swear, I don't hold it against you. My bad for being such a slowpoke producer that I poke through these things WIP style instead of producing finished fics like the pros do.

There might be one more chapter or two, not sure yet. I've got a final scene in mind, but some of the in-between stuff is still under construction. Soon, though!

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Date: 2005-02-16 08:06 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] wickedgillie.livejournal.com
oooh, i love the twisty with the council! And your last 3 lines? Masterful.

(almost wrote marstersful! lord, love those freudians, lol)

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Date: 2005-02-16 08:09 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] thedeadlyhook.livejournal.com
Thankee. And I actually had the weirdest dream last night where Marsters wrote a comic book. I think my brain was getting him mixed up with that guy who plays Cyclops in The X-Men. Freudian! Jungian! Something! Hee.

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Date: 2005-02-16 08:15 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] jwaneeta.livejournal.com
"No." She shakes her head. "I don't believe it. Giles wouldn't--" She stops, and their eyes meet.

Alas, alas for Spike and Angel -- up to their ears in dogoodery, but hunted from all sides. Bad CoW! Don't the boys have enough worries?

I really like the image of the Aurelian portraits. The descriptions felt menacing and just right for Spike's paranoid mood. Poor guy.

And now I'm worried for Angel, too.

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Date: 2005-02-17 12:00 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] thedeadlyhook.livejournal.com
I'll be checking in with Angel next.

I couldn't resist pulling in the CoW as a new plot wrinkle. Bad of me probably to do it here, but I seem to have this issue with story sprawl. Guess I'm just not a very schematic writer!

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Date: 2005-02-17 01:56 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lillianmorgan.livejournal.com
Was Spike always this paranoid? It's interesting to see this new side to him - after so many battles, so many times when he thought he was dead, to rise again and go back into the battle. Wearying is an understatement.
I love Spike's internal monologue - it's like he can't shut himself up - but the way he convinces himself to keep on keeping on is great.
Loved the end too. Although it's about the two of them right? Not just Buffy swooping in to save the day?
Hey they're in London - did he take her to the statue in Hyde Park? *g*

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Date: 2005-02-17 12:05 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] thedeadlyhook.livejournal.com
I was planning to walk them through Hyde Park at one point, so Spike could mention that bit about Percy Shelley's wife drowning in the Serpentine, but then I got sidetracked.

Spike's paranoia is pretty new. We got a bit of it, back when he was still trying to kill Buffy, convinced that she was out to get him specifically, but not like this. It's something I'm filling in around the corners of this story and DIHTMS, that he's essentially switched places with Buffy as the only "one in all the world," and that's a rather lonely, paranoia-inducing place. And yeah, there's a point to that... it just may take me awhile to get there.

Although it's about the two of them right? Not just Buffy swooping in to save the day?

Nope, no swooping here.


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Date: 2005-02-17 01:56 am (UTC)
elisi: Edwin and Charles (Girl with a Sword by sandy_s)
From: [personal profile] elisi
Because that's his girl.

Damn, but this is good! I'm at the edge of my seat now. I want more! No, actually, I don't ever want it to stop! Just keep writing forever, ok?

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Date: 2005-02-17 12:12 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] thedeadlyhook.livejournal.com
It's gonna feel like forever by the time I'm done at this rate! Especially since all my currently running WIPs more or less tie together... or will, eventually.

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Date: 2005-02-17 03:24 am (UTC)
From: (Anonymous)
Enjoyed Spike's plot spectulation.
Found this very sad,
That decided him, suddenly. He really, really needed to get back to his own world and stop dithering around in Buffy's. Just stop dicking around in general. What good did it do? It didn't make her happy, or him. What had he been thinking?
Encouraged by the last few lines, similar to the uplift at the end of chp 11, I had to go back and check the chp number:)
Jane

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Date: 2005-02-17 12:13 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] thedeadlyhook.livejournal.com
I do go back and forth on their relationship, don't I? Never feel too comfortable just letting them rest on their laurels for very long. But there's a few things I have planned coming up that should make it lie a little easier, not to spoil things too much. : )

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Date: 2005-02-17 04:04 am (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] moscow-watcher.livejournal.com
As soon as I got prepared for a long exciting story about Buffy and Spike fighting global conspiracy, you inform that the end is near??!! Damn. :) Honestly, I was ready to follow your story ad aeternum. Hope you'll develop some of your ideas in DIHTMS.
Anyways, the chapter is magnificent - full of tension and foreboding. Thanks.

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Date: 2005-02-17 12:16 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] thedeadlyhook.livejournal.com
Thanks! I'm not perfectly satisfied with this one myself - I've had questions that need answering, so I'll probably be tweaking this chapter for plot holes at some point - but this plot thread will continue over in DIHTMS, from Buffy's POV.

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Date: 2005-02-17 07:38 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] caliente-uk.livejournal.com
I love this fic. I only started reading it last night and couldn't stop. It was 4am by the time I went to bed, and I still had 3 chapters left to read! I'm glad it's going to tie in with DIHTMS, because I really don't want this to be over. Eagerly awaiting the next chapter.

Thank you! :)

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Date: 2005-02-17 12:17 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] thedeadlyhook.livejournal.com
Thanks! I love to hear I'm delivering on the suspense. : )

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