State of the Me

[thedeadlyhook]

Damn, it has been a really long time since I last posted. Ye gods. Happy Belated New Year, everyone! I guess this would be the late equivalent of my year-end taking-stock post.

It's ironic, I think: I've become more and more of a hermit, social-networking-wise, now that it's practically ubitquitous out there, what with the Facebook and Twitter, and etc., etc. The more pressure there is to be "on" all the time, the less I find myself having to say. Yes, of course I realize that this is only an imagined pressure on my part, but still - I honestly find myself thinking You know, I just want to stop and smell the flowers, or read a book, or whatever, without blogging about it, okay? As happy fun-time things go, it's starting to feel a bit too much like a job.

Which I guess is part of why I haven't been around too much. The other part is the usual fandom drift; my current television and movie viewing is poles apart from the tastes of my friendslist (I watch little on TV these days other than cooking shows, Discovery Channel, and Cartoon Network - ask me about "Worst Cooks in America"! - and I think the last film I saw in a theater was Paranormal Activity). I'm also pretty much off the Buffy fandom radar, as I'm not following the comics. (Although I did hear about the "Twilight" reveal, and have little to add that hasn't already been said by rahirah or shipperx.) I skim LJ, but rarely comment... I really don't know what to say anymore. Sigh.

On a slightly more uplifting note, I've actually started to write again.

Confession time: for quite awhile now, I've been trying to decide if I was really done with Buffy fanfic. On the surface of it, it certainly looked like it - I hadn't written anything new in months, not since the hard-drive crash that ate my last plot bunny (a shame, since I was really liking my spur-of-the-moment premise, and it went into the great unknown literally the day after it was starting to take shape, and I'd turned out a nice chunk of prose I was really pleased with), and I have WIPs on my drive that have languished for actual YEARS. But. I don't think I am quite done, not yet.

Long story short, you can thank a friend of mine, one of my few RL friends who knows about my fandom journal, for nudging me about it, because the other day, I found myself picking up the threads of my old WIP, "Action Figures and Fashion Dolls." And it was FUN. Fun to read my old notes about where that story was going to go, fun to just enjoy playing with words again. Fun to create again.

I think I'd honestly forgotten what it was like. I even feel less tired now than I have been, just from playing around with that story.

So yeah, there may be yet more Buffyfic from me in the not-too-far-off-future, cross fingers. Not that I expect anyone's been waiting for it, or should feel in any way compelled to comment even if so, as bad as I've been about commenting myself lately, but... yeah. There may be some left in me yet.

Comments

[xc-runner50.livejournal.com]

You write Buffy fic. I will said Buffy fic. :P Writing fanfiction should be fun.

[silverusagi]

Good to hear from you!

[rebcake.livejournal.com]

¡Yay! I'm glad you're feeling the fun. It's so true that a setback (like wonky hard drives) can make things seem insurmountable. But the reward for creative output is great and immediate. Go you!

[moscow-watcher.livejournal.com]

I don't want to jinx it - but I'm sooo looking forward to your Buffy fanfiction!

[asta77.livejournal.com]

I haven't written fic in ages, but have a long gestating BSG fic (as well as a new 'White Collar' plot bunny) and I hope people will still care once I get around to writing/posting it so I totally encourage you picking up where you left off. :)

[jwaneeta.livejournal.com]

Missed you!

I watch the bleeding Discovery Channel all day, some days (meaning I have it on while I work). I'm not keen on Mythbusters, which makes me feel like a weirdo. I've come to enjoy Cash Cab.

Perplexingly, I find I've now got it for Mike Rowe and never miss Dirty Jobs if I can help it. Deadliest Catch remains the favorite. Man vs Wild generally just makes me tense. :/

[tabaqui]

*waves*
Hello hello!

[riccadonna.livejournal.com]

So nice to hear from you! I'll keep my fingers crossed for your writing...to do it for fun is the only way to go!

[herself_nyc]

I for one look forward to your Buffyfic!
And I sympathize with your meh feeling about updating online. I hate Facebook.

[cordykitten]

I don't think I am quite done, not yet.
YAY :))

[kassto.livejournal.com]

JULIE!!

Good to hear from you. I keep wanting to write you a long email, because I finally watched seasons four and five of Angel all through and wanted to tell you what I thought.

Don't post if it's a chore. I go through many phases of such.

[rahirah]

Very small squee, so as not to jinx it.

[seapealsh.livejournal.com]

Glad you're back. Re Buffyverse fic - if it's Spuffy then you write it, I read it. It's that simple. And I hold onto WIPs for years.

[petzipellepingo.livejournal.com]

So yeah, there may be yet more Buffyfic from me in the not-too-far-off-future, cross fingers. Not that I expect anyone's been waiting for it, or should feel in any way compelled to comment even if so, as bad as I've been about commenting myself lately, but... yeah. There may be some left in me yet.


Very good news.

I watch little on TV these days other than cooking shows, Discovery Channel, and Cartoon Network
I'm not much better, ever since the Strike I read most evenings.

[confusedkayt.livejournal.com]

Gasp! How absurdly exciting for us. :) I know exactly what you mean, though - when I think they've wrung the last useful waking minute out of me at work, I am *shocked* by how uplifting a little fic tinkering is.

*misses San Francisco, burritos, and you*

[sweet-ali.livejournal.com]

I had an urge about a week ago to reread your series that began with "Dirty Back Road", which made me think of you and where you'd been. So seeing you update feels all serendipitous :)

I think most of us, who were once frequent LJers, have pared back to more of a sporadic update, which...works.

[fishsanwitt]

::hugs::