State of the Me
Jan. 18th, 2010 10:20 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
thedeadlyhookDamn, it has been a really long time since I last posted. Ye gods. Happy Belated New Year, everyone! I guess this would be the late equivalent of my year-end taking-stock post.
It's ironic, I think: I've become more and more of a hermit, social-networking-wise, now that it's practically ubitquitous out there, what with the Facebook and Twitter, and etc., etc. The more pressure there is to be "on" all the time, the less I find myself having to say. Yes, of course I realize that this is only an imagined pressure on my part, but still - I honestly find myself thinking You know, I just want to stop and smell the flowers, or read a book, or whatever, without blogging about it, okay? As happy fun-time things go, it's starting to feel a bit too much like a job.
Which I guess is part of why I haven't been around too much. The other part is the usual fandom drift; my current television and movie viewing is poles apart from the tastes of my friendslist (I watch little on TV these days other than cooking shows, Discovery Channel, and Cartoon Network - ask me about "Worst Cooks in America"! - and I think the last film I saw in a theater was Paranormal Activity). I'm also pretty much off the Buffy fandom radar, as I'm not following the comics. (Although I did hear about the "Twilight" reveal, and have little to add that hasn't already been said by![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
rahirah or shipperx.) I skim LJ, but rarely comment... I really don't know what to say anymore. Sigh.
On a slightly more uplifting note, I've actually started to write again.
Confession time: for quite awhile now, I've been trying to decide if I was really done with Buffy fanfic. On the surface of it, it certainly looked like it - I hadn't written anything new in months, not since the hard-drive crash that ate my last plot bunny (a shame, since I was really liking my spur-of-the-moment premise, and it went into the great unknown literally the day after it was starting to take shape, and I'd turned out a nice chunk of prose I was really pleased with), and I have WIPs on my drive that have languished for actual YEARS. But. I don't think I am quite done, not yet.
Long story short, you can thank a friend of mine, one of my few RL friends who knows about my fandom journal, for nudging me about it, because the other day, I found myself picking up the threads of my old WIP, "Action Figures and Fashion Dolls." And it was FUN. Fun to read my old notes about where that story was going to go, fun to just enjoy playing with words again. Fun to create again.
I think I'd honestly forgotten what it was like. I even feel less tired now than I have been, just from playing around with that story.
So yeah, there may be yet more Buffyfic from me in the not-too-far-off-future, cross fingers. Not that I expect anyone's been waiting for it, or should feel in any way compelled to comment even if so, as bad as I've been about commenting myself lately, but... yeah. There may be some left in me yet.
It's ironic, I think: I've become more and more of a hermit, social-networking-wise, now that it's practically ubitquitous out there, what with the Facebook and Twitter, and etc., etc. The more pressure there is to be "on" all the time, the less I find myself having to say. Yes, of course I realize that this is only an imagined pressure on my part, but still - I honestly find myself thinking You know, I just want to stop and smell the flowers, or read a book, or whatever, without blogging about it, okay? As happy fun-time things go, it's starting to feel a bit too much like a job.
Which I guess is part of why I haven't been around too much. The other part is the usual fandom drift; my current television and movie viewing is poles apart from the tastes of my friendslist (I watch little on TV these days other than cooking shows, Discovery Channel, and Cartoon Network - ask me about "Worst Cooks in America"! - and I think the last film I saw in a theater was Paranormal Activity). I'm also pretty much off the Buffy fandom radar, as I'm not following the comics. (Although I did hear about the "Twilight" reveal, and have little to add that hasn't already been said by
rahirah or shipperx.) I skim LJ, but rarely comment... I really don't know what to say anymore. Sigh.On a slightly more uplifting note, I've actually started to write again.
Confession time: for quite awhile now, I've been trying to decide if I was really done with Buffy fanfic. On the surface of it, it certainly looked like it - I hadn't written anything new in months, not since the hard-drive crash that ate my last plot bunny (a shame, since I was really liking my spur-of-the-moment premise, and it went into the great unknown literally the day after it was starting to take shape, and I'd turned out a nice chunk of prose I was really pleased with), and I have WIPs on my drive that have languished for actual YEARS. But. I don't think I am quite done, not yet.
Long story short, you can thank a friend of mine, one of my few RL friends who knows about my fandom journal, for nudging me about it, because the other day, I found myself picking up the threads of my old WIP, "Action Figures and Fashion Dolls." And it was FUN. Fun to read my old notes about where that story was going to go, fun to just enjoy playing with words again. Fun to create again.
I think I'd honestly forgotten what it was like. I even feel less tired now than I have been, just from playing around with that story.
So yeah, there may be yet more Buffyfic from me in the not-too-far-off-future, cross fingers. Not that I expect anyone's been waiting for it, or should feel in any way compelled to comment even if so, as bad as I've been about commenting myself lately, but... yeah. There may be some left in me yet.
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Date: 2010-01-20 06:54 pm (UTC)Very good news.
I watch little on TV these days other than cooking shows, Discovery Channel, and Cartoon Network
I'm not much better, ever since the Strike I read most evenings.
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Date: 2010-01-23 02:40 am (UTC)I've been catching up on my reading too. I've gotten back on the nonfiction again, which was always my big weakness, but it makes for some fun all-purpose historical research - you never know when that sort of thing will come in handy for fiction purposes.
Oh, I do watch Burn Notice, though. Something about that particular formula really appeals to me.
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Date: 2010-01-23 09:48 am (UTC)